Long Lost Love

your presence still lingers here,

in my heart;

for your eternal flame shall never dim,

as long as i'm here to protect you;

you are my lust,

you are my envy,

you are my greed,

you are my pride,

you are my gluttony;

you are my wrath;

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as our love is written in the stars...

we shall meet again

yes, we shall...

(right after i finished my final paper, of course)

Sketch

"I wonder if this whole world is a sketch,

because i never met someone who's not an actor/actress.
yeah...i've even been in movies many times before,
and some of them're blockbuster!
some passionate actors were very into the movie,
that until today i can still feel the pain from the last scene,
where i've been stabbed in the back."

-mugen

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Peel Fresh

"ahh...rasa segar bugar bangat bangsat lepas seharian tak tido dok buat program 4 computer...serius aku serik..."

grabbed from 108redstitches.blogspot.com

For You

gersang gila orang yang bagi kad nih...

Darker Than Black

"mugen, mugen, who are you?"
"adam, adam, i am you!"
"if you are me, then who i am?"
"be afraid you shouldn't, 'cause you are me!"
"shut the fuck up mugen, you're twisting my mind!"
"ha ha, ha ha, 'cause i am twisted,
for you and i, we both are crooked."
"wtf, wtf, how come i'm twisted?"
"for i am you and what's mine is yours."
"you are getting creepy mugen, i'm afraid of you."
"why are you afraid of your own shadow, my dear adam?"
"you keep saying, you keep chanting,
that you and i, are both one child!"
"afraid not my dear me, for what's best for you is best for me!"
"what?"
"because within you, there is me,
and within me, there is you."
"i don't understand, i'm not philosophical."
"as always, you are naive adam,
for without me, you're just a toy for the bullies"
*monologue*:"sigh, sigh, i am weak."
"yes, yes, you are weak!"
"how come, how come, you can read my mind?"
"for i am you, and you are me,
and i'm your darkest inner side, and you're my purest inner side!"

grabbed from dark.pozadia.org

Dare Life

"dare life,
is the a.b.c. of survival;
not because i'm the fittest,
but because i'm wounded;
for taking the road most rugged,
is always my way of life;
i will continue to live,
even though i have to walk,
with my tail between my legs."
-mugen

"i'm fucked up with computer science,
now you can't call me a nerd*."
-adam

*psychological perspective: personality is reflected by our jobs; computer scientist is nerd.

Fallen Angel

"be afraid of the devil we shouldn't,

'cause the devil's own master we are."
-mugen

grabbed from scrapetv.com

the words above that mugen spoke off are what drove me to be braver...to be frank, i WAS quite of a coward when it comes to facing one of my greatest fear; devils.

ever since i can remember, i was always afraid of the unseen entity...why? maybe because i grew up in a malay community where myths about devils were quite creative indeed; pontianak (dead widow who flies around and seek young man's blood), hantu raya (ghost of eidul-fitr celebration), hantu kopek (ghost of woman with gigantic boobies), and more!

well, not until i tried to search for the reason behind the reason i was afraid of those ghost...thou' it took quite a few years to reason with the you-are-a-ghost-so-i-should-fear-you mentality...the fact that i've been kissed by the devil when i was young (saw a picture of me having black dots on my forehead that is only visible in the photo and someone conclude that i was kissed by the devil) and i lived in a heavily-populated-by-ghosties house back in kuantan were enough to scare the shit out of me...

the house in kuantan where i lived in for about 5 years was full of unexplained phenomenon; sound of scratches and footsteps on the ceiling where if they were originating from cats or birds, i should have heard their sounds because the ceilings were made of thin cardboard...but in this case, i did not hear any cat or bird sound!...and the fact that my mother got sick because of those 'things' really boiled my shit...if only they can materialize into something physical, imma' drag their ass out on the street and kick the shit out of 'em...

when i set my mentality that we humans are made better than those devils, something is making sense. why should i be afraid of something that is of a lower status? instead, i should respect them for they're also one of God's creation. thou i'm still struggling to get rid of the feeling of inferiority to the devils, but at least i'm a lot braver than before...

p/s: even i can be a lot more of a devil than the devil itself...
p/s 2: hantu kopek sounds interesting...

Sand

grabbed from beetlebabee.wordpress.com

"thou shalt let the sands of time be the cure,
and prepare for the advent of regenesis;
for all hatred and love are subjugated
to death and decay;
maybe,
just maybe,
love is about forgiving after all."
-mugen

grabbed from waterstone.wordpress.com

16th Week-ends

friday 4th Dec: first snow...some fellas're playin' snowballs war down there...

i missed the bus to the mosque on purpose so that i can walk my way there whilst enjoying the sceneries

SIG 2nd activity...nice job for not taking the path of cliche usrah
played snowball war...

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saturday 5th Dec: got lost while trying to find cinema...at -10°C...

when all hope was done for, there it was, the marcus cinema, with it's majestic look, and retarded-no-taste popcorn...luckily ninja assassin was worth the effort to get there...

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sunday 6th Dec: even my favourite beverage can get turned-on by the freezing temperature...

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monday 7th Dec: class started at 3pm...so i consider today is still a holiday...it snowed for the 2nd time...and i noticed that every snow flakes has its own distinct shape...how magical...sugoi!

grabbed from labgrab.com

Dust

grabbed from graphicshunt.com

"the smoothest a bond can be is forged,
by men and women whose innocence is a toy for their lust;
for they pursue the happiness only love can bring,
that they turn blind eye to the materialized mountains,
separating them not of their hearts but their eyes;
and as the time is staged as the antagonist,
and put them into test;
for those who outlast the test of time,
shall claim the trophy of matrimony;
and for those who failed their bond,
they shall cherish the requiem of their despair;
for their bond is nothing but
dust."
-mugen

grabbed from kezi.wordpress.com

Lose Yourself

"to lose is to gain;

to gain is to lose"

p/s: i hardly get any intuition lately...sigh...

Mystery

"colour is still a mystery for me"
-adam(2009)

i wonder how would it be if everything is colourless or only black & white or only pink...i hate the last one...

1st December 2009

"arigatou to CS 302 or in it's standard name CamShit 302, my life is getting 'better'! for 3 days(at least), i worked on it, and it doesn't get anywhere near complete...

now at 3 am on 2nd December, i can finally relax my butt and caress it as it had suffered too much from my concentration on finishing my java program...dear dear my butt, let daddy put you into the comfortiness of the bed..."

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"hell, i forgot about my calculus homework! oh well, i still have 10 hours before the class start...minus my sleep time and other classes, only 2 hours left to do those homeworks...nice... calculus...'love' ya'!"