Bad Hair Day....literally...

I don't know what've gotten into me this morning...when i woke up at noon this 'morning', i felt like every problem i have was coming back to me....one by one...piling up on top of me...suffocating me...ughh....(>.<)

the pressure had taken a toll on me this day that my long hair seem like someone had blown up my hair...i cannot control my hair anymore...i wanted to straighten it strand by strand but i just cant...hmmm...i just have to do the thing that i despise the most nowadays...ugh....getting a haircut... (0.0)

as my father cut my hair inch by inch, i looked at the fallen hair in soberness...i felt like all the hardship i've gone through to keep my hair long since early this year, just *poof* ...gone away like that...snap, snap, snap...50% of my hair left...ugh...all the sweat, hot weather, rain that i and my hair had gone through will be just memories now... (T-T)

keeping long hair was a childhood dream to me...i always wanted to have long hair ever since i was little...maybe around 5 years old...but schools in malaysia just wont let me keep my hair long...so i have to wait until i enter university...hmm...someday maybe i'll start keep my hair after i fly to US...just maybe...just maybe... ( =.=")

TzzzzOzzzzEzzzzFzzzzLzzzz....

Huargh.....ZzzZzzzZzzz....

"adam! bangun cepat oi!!! org yang nak peksa plak tido lagi. haiz..." ....the morning nag exclusively from my mother wakes the serenity of the cold and chilling morning at my grandma's house...Arghhhhhh!! i hate when my sleep is disturbed...my brain cannot think straight...i feel like kinda 'mabuk' when i wake up unwillingly... (@_@)

i almost forget that today is a big day for me....TOEFL test man....rm600 worth of piece of crap test just to make sure that i can enter the overseas university...i do not do any practice for this test since the last TOEFL class with Madam Suzana...hope that my skills won't be too rusty for the test today... (>.<)

Polytechnic Salahuddin that is...my test centre where i should be taking my test...a very huge place i should say...for my friends and me have a little difficulties in searching for the test building...Juan, Yameen, and BeeJay will be taking this test with me....maybe along with 30++ more students from Intec too...funny thing that i don't feel anxious or panic before sitting this test...hmm... (=.=")

During the test, i donno what happen to my stomach...something tells me that i ate the wrong thing for breakfast or i still in my 'mabuk' mode after the calamity for being awake unwillingly earlier this morning...but stil, i maintain my focus and able to do quite well for the test...except for the listening test though...for i have this complicated part of my brain that signal me to sleep everytime when the listening test is going on...i tried to stay awake throughout the listening test but i failed to do so when my nemesis topic is on discussion....the cursed damn 'Literature' lecture...Arghh..!!!!! History boley tahan lagi, tapi Poetry, Arghhghghghghgh!!!!! (>.<)

luckily i ended the test early 'coz i don't want to take the extra time left for every section to review back my question...there's one thing that always condemn me everytime i look back the questions in every exam i take including the PMR and SPM...i always change the answer choice from the correct one to the wrong one...that's why i hate revising my test question if i have extra time to spare...Juan finishes his test at the same time as mine...Yameen on other hand, finishes way earlier than us two...

before i leave my test desk, i notice that the boy sitting at the far right of me is like groaning in pain or somethin' like that..(coz i'm wearing headset at that time...couldn't hear quite well of the surrounding)...well...it is because his computer turn off in a sudden, probably because of the thunder...pity him...he is still in speaking section when he had the bad karma...i don't know what happen to him afterwards...maybe he has to redo the test all over again....mungkin tu cara Allah beri peringatan kat dia, atau ada hikmah disebalik kejadian tu...that's what i hold in my principe of life...there's always hikmah beyond the events that i experience...

as outside is raining heavily, that even in some parts of the shah alam roads are covered by flood...i have to cancel my 'date' with juan for today....we promised to hang out after the test...well that's what wise people call qada' dan qadar...ada hikmah aku tak jadi pergi jalan-jalan...

Darn...why must I (almost) cry??

phew....this time, it's goin' to be the second time I almost cried for centuries...note the word ALMOST ok?...not because of clashing with GF (though i don't have one) or somethin'....but after watching a movie...an indonesian movie...Ayat-ayat cinta to be precise...huhu...

at first, i hesitate to watch this kind of movie as i fear that this movie will be a cliche like any other romantic movie i've watched...but, I was wrong...totally WRONG...this movie is out of this world babe!!! the idea is fresh and it's got many mind-bending, emotion-stirring, awe-inspiring, heart-stopping twist....

there are things in a movie or drama or whatever that can strike directly to the epicenter of my emotion...every element in the movie has what it takes to shake off the brick wall that engulfed my fragile heart...sacrifice, love , friendship, filliality, Islam, family, etc. *not to forget cute actress too! (^-^)

Heh...to be frank, i thought the actress in the movie will be like IN the movie in term of appreance outside the shooting site...heh...teruskan bermimpi adam!! chaiyooo!!!....the actress that played the aisha character, is really different from the movie in the real world...hahah...that's life...heh...i should expect the worst before i expect the good... (>.<)

The most memorable script i noticed in the movie is: Cinta dan keinginan untuk memiliki adalah berbeza...(or somthin' like that). I wont give out more detail about the storyline of the movie, to avoid spoiler...but i would recommend this movie to who is interested in romantic movie with a lot of twist...a 5 out of 5 i should give to honor its original writer whose cognitive creativity created this magnificante magnus creation of art!!! enjoy~~~

Happy + Sad = Hadpy?

Today will be a great day...i can feel the anxiety and anxiousness inside me that make my mood pompously happy...but as the after effect of playing DOTA last night, i felt quite tired. Today, LA final exam...i only managed to cover important topics only...i don’t want to risk my focus by reading other than the important parts that miss hanie had taught me...Luckily, the questions were not as tough as i presumed...they only covers basic topics...however the clause questions really trapped me real bad...i misread the clauses part of the book...so i can only aim at any target and hetam...bang bang bang!!...when i finished answering, the clock just passed 15 minutes from the starting exam time....15 MINUTES??!! Did i really hentam all questions? Uh...nevermind...i just have to cover back my lost sleep time and there i go sleeping on the exam table for 45 minutes...
As the exam finished early, i managed to go back to cendana early...managed to play a couple of two games of DOTA against pro...i got lucky...I beat the so-called pro DOTA player from the room next to mine...I don’t like to kill heroes by going solo...i’m just an average team player...

After DOTA-ing, me, juan, talhah, and cedric took a taxi to sunway pyramid...this was the moment i’ve been looking forward to...today, our class will hold a farewell party...the last time we had a party was at PakLi cafe during Ramadhan...the taxi fare was cheap, thanks to juan...(^-^)
Sunway pyramid is a good place to cuci mata according to cedric...i know what he means...you should know by now too...*uhuk*uhuk*uhuk*hot*uhuk*uhuk*chicks*uhuk*uhuk*.... (^-^)

The first place that we went was the ice-skating court...lots of intec students were enjoying their time skating....there, even the ‘suci’ member of mine also got caught with scandal...hahah...he held a girl’s hand while skating together...hahah...scandal la sangat...kalau aku yang main, sure la kene pegang orang lain...kang jatuh gedebuk lagi malu....heheh...(^-^)

Later, we had dinner at Wendy’s...this is the first time for me...Wendy’s was quite the same with mcD which is situated just across it...only that Wendy’s will cost more....but to compare with mcD, despite the expensive price tag, Wendy’s was worth the money as i had little trouble to finish its humongous burger...my reading and writing lecturers also joined us this time...miss nurul ikhlas and miss farina...our favourite lecturer miss hanie can't join us this time as she was not feeling so well...sob... (T_T)

Next, we planned to go karaoke-ing at Red Box, but as the fare was out of this world, we resort to more-wallet-friendly bowling...i still felt discouraged by my last bowling game 9 months ago...i as the leader of the bowling club of my school, lost to my friends...the worst part was that i only score 24 per game...24!!!! Warghhhh.....luckily i managed to score 90 today after juan and talhah who scored 101 and 94 respectively (cheewah skema giler ayat)...still this score will put my face in the dirt if my old friends know about this... (T-T)
after the game, we walked through from the end of sunway pyramid to the other end of the building to the car park...this was the saddest moment...it’s like we’ll never see each other again...miss farina and miss ikhlas expressed their thanks to us...very emotional indeed... (T-T) ....*i don’t cry la... they won’t be teaching in intec in the coming years...so this might be the last time we’ll see them...luckily miss hanie will still be teaching in intec...if not, there’ll be nothing left from the 3 most problematic lecturers i’ve ever had...there’re like friends to me...not strangers...they taught me the to enjoy life aside from the syllabus...miss farina taught me to move on and don’t look in the past...i’ll remember her words... saying goodbye was the hardest word for me to say at the moment...God’s willing, we’ll meet again in the future...thanks for everything...thanks for the memories...sob...

For Eugenians, today will be the last day we’ll be as a class...next sem, we’ll be in different class, pursuing each people’s dream...i’ll revive the vivid memories we had all this semester...you guys were cool...I was lucky to have you guys as classmates, as friends...sorry if i had hurt you guys...sorry...fret not...be optimistic...next semester, we’ll meet each other again right? Till we meet again...as a last favor for all of you, i made this video...although i'm just new to this movie making... (>.<)

Somewhere i belong.....

Today is one of the few saddest days of my life. But that’s life. Life has its ups and downs. One by one, my friends left me. We i regretted that i overslept last night. As a consequence, i didn’t have the time to say goodbye to them. I didn’t have the chance to ask for their forgiveness in person. Hmm...that’s life...i can’t expect things will go according to my track.

when life is at the best, i should expect the worst to happen in the future. bak kata pepatah, “setiap pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan”. Time is short. Very short. The time i had in the 1st sem of my university life is too short – 4 months. I will cherish the moments i had during my university life, especially with my friends.

In the following entries will contain the pieces of memories i had there. Not all pieces though. There should be something that should be kept secret.

Eugene....a devil in disguise...

Now it comes to writing about my own class...Eugene...the 5th class among 13 classes in ADFP...the first 4 classes are labelled as the elite classes while starting from my class will be the ‘lower’ classes (not according to me only...but also majority of students from the ‘lower’ classes)...
I, at first, keep a low profile of myself while observing the people around me...for me, i need to trust people before i can befriend them...so it’s quite late when i can mingle around with them...they, my classmates are in fact very friendly and sporting...their behaviour beats their ‘suci’ looks...hehe...

The most obvious person to have changed after mingling with me and syazwan would be CEDRIC a.k.a CECE...haha...he’s our sporting, outgoing, simple, friendly class rep...a genius in disguise, he’s transforming from a ‘muka buku’ to a more cool person...he even got addicted to DOTA* which he at first condemned...furthermore, he’s exceptionally a great help for me in improving my precalculus skills...he came from kampong area in Melaka, so he’s not like many high standard Chinese / Eurasian...very friendly regardless of the races...he even joined my gang to play dota till late at night!! Haha...sometimes we even go through sleepless night just to play DOTA against people from room level 5...hehe...

Syazwan a.k.a Juan is a cheeky guy with funny jokes everytime you talk to him...easy to mingle with, he’s in fact one year younger than me...his age is a contrast to his brain, which is very brilliant!! His precalculus skill is among the best in the class...haha...he also always kene hentam by our gang due to his scandal with ______ ...eheh..jgn marah aku eh juan eh?...he’s a very peramah person...i was awestruck by his communication skill among the people...for example, he helped us to reduce the taxi fare by chatting with the taxi driver...he’s very useful to be around...eheh...

“Talhah! Talhah ! Talhah!” ... that’s the trademark motto for my friend...talhah by name, romantic by his words...everytime i heard him chatting with anyone in his cellphone, he will talk in romantic manner...very tender and clear voice...hhaha...not to aweks lar...to his mom and family...he is a very fluent English speaker, provided that he had lived in UK for several years...very studious and also playful...one of the Genius student in my class...very outgoing but pity him, his parents keep a strict eye on him so he cannot go out easily during semester break...huhu...but he secretly hangout with us outside cendana and he even also travelled to KL by himself...salute!!! Live life free, Talhah!!.. (^-^)

Acap and Raja are two people with opposite mind...they always argue playfully about almost everything... “anda silap!” or “bias!” is some of the trademark sentences when they argue...they entertained the class to no end with their behaviour...hahah...

Amir and azreen...two cool looking guys in my class...amir matured looks goes beyond his young age...people even mistaken him to be at the same age as the rest of us...meanwhile for azreen, a pro DOTA player in disguise, keep an ultimate low profile among us in the class...he only smile and say simple words to reply our question...very shy guy, but he changed a bit through the end of the semester...he became more friendly and talkative...heh...nice...(^-^)

Afiq and yameen...two quiet guys...Afiq’s famous for his utara slang...a mathematical prodigy, Afiq is the best at precalculus in our class...yameen, a specky guy, who used to be pro in DOTA long ago...an enthuasiastic speaker when debating, he expresses his emotions whenever he is attacked from the oppositions in a debate...haha...makes me remember a moment when a debate almost evolve into a big argument....

not to forget, amin and akif!! These two always sit next together in the class...amin is a very interesting speaker (used to joined school debates... 0_0) and everything he wears is always stylish as he loves fashion...normally, guys who are into fashion are sotong type right? But not him...he is just like an average joe, Terengganu mari...Akif on the other hand, lives just around the corner of cendana...thanks to him, we can enjoy open house at his place...i’ll remember those moments forever...thanks akif...(^-^)

Four ayu malay girls sitting in the front – atikah, feeza, zuhra, and aisyah always have their agenda...a constant noisemaker in the class whenever the lecturers are not in, they are also very friendly...based on my espionage and data collecting, 2 of them are taken already (sorry guys) at the moment this entry is uploaded....cannot tell you la which one...you just have to ask yourself... (>.<)

Yasmin, Alia, and Zahirah...another 3 more ecstatic malay girls in my class...they are the primary source for noises in our class (sorry girls..hehe)...yasmin is our little sister in our class...so easy to kenekan...playful like a small girl...reminds me of a friend i used to have in my secondary school...(>.<)...Alia and Zahirah are two loudspeaker of the class...very energetic and ecstatic in nature, they both are very good at collecting gossip...they also are avid fan of Gossip Girl (this story even attracted some of the guys in our class to watch it...ugh).... (>.<) Paremala, the only indian girl in the class...verry very outspoken when given the chance to speak...her name always be mispronounced by acap; "Para"...she's one of the best student in the class too...

Last but not least, the 3 nice chinese girls in my class...Hui Ping, Peng, Su San, and Wong...hui ping is a quiet type of girl though...but she does her job with much responsibility...although it is quite hard to make her feel accepted in our ‘gila-gila’ group, but she is still a friendly girl once you know her closer...Peng, a slim and tall girl that has been associated with one of the guys in our class...heheh...i’ll keep it as a secret, but it looks like this secret won’t hold intact long...she is a genius in our class too like Afiq...Su San, a pure genius....excels in both math and English...a fluent speaker and very shy in nature...when she speaks, only soft, soothing voice will come out of her mouth...Wong, the only slanged speaker in our class...she talks like an American already...i love it when she pronounce the word “and” with her own style...hahah...(^-^)

You all are great friends to me...i shall mesmerize the memories i had with you people...peace...(^-^)